Pregnant & Ditsy!

I am absolutely delighted to announce that hubby and I are expecting another precious baby. We kept this pregnancy quiet for the 1st trimester after there being problems last time. It was decided to announce the baby news after the 12 week scan if all looked healthy... and it did! Beautifully healthy.. both baby and placenta! What a massive relief that filled my eyes with tears of happiness!! :) Baby is in fact growing so well, that he/she measured 4 days bigger for dates, giving a due date of the 19th of September. (I won't go into the details of how I had to get off the scanning chair/bed thingy and do a hip wiggling dance to get baby into good position for a measurement! Hubby had a right old laugh.. not to mention the sonographer!! :S)

Now for the ditsy part of the title... I'm not really sure why, but every time I'm pregnant.. my brain seems to go into hiding and is just no where to be found! I find myself doing some crazy things, forgetting almost everything and I seem to lose the ability to communicate properly. Quite literally I can be happily talking away when I'll say some random word completely backwards, (hubby thinks this is actually quite a talent!) or I'll forget what I was saying or what I'm saying just doesn't really make any sense!

Yesterday my ditsy pregnancy brain cost my family and I at least 15 minutes sitting in the wind and rain! (yay :S) WHY?? Well.. we'd taken the park and ride into town.. the kids LOVE to go on the bus. We hopped off at our stop and I was asking hubby if I should wear nice, trendy hat and mess up my hair for rest of day or to let it just get wet.. he voted hat. Ok, hat it is... hat.. o.. ah! Ummm... darling... (embarrassed face) I ummm think I just left my hat and gloves on the bus! :S 'cheesy smile'.. "love you"!! Then I tell the boys that mummy left something on the bus and we need to wait for it to come back this way! We came up with some games to pass the time.. like jumping the lines on the pavements etc (I must have looked like a right noggin!) and eventually the bus passed back and the bus driver gave us a massive grin and waved the hat and gloves at us! :S How embarrassing!

I'm sure this past week is the first of many, many embarrassing events to come during this pregnancy! Course.. it's all worth it! I just hope I can find my brain again after the baby is born! :S Trouble is... it's getting better at hiding and I'm getting worse at seeking! May end up having to change the blogs name to My Ditsy Diary.

Spring Is In The Air

I don't know about you, but the winter this year felt like it has lasted a very long time! It has been SO cold, persistently cold and so much rain! I have to admit that the weather was not doing my spirits any good. I knew I was desperate for spring to come along, but I didn't realize just how desperate until Tuesday afternoon. It had been sunny all morning, but I didn't think much of it since it had rained everyday for the last 2+ weeks and even when the sun shone its beautiful face down upon us, it was still cold. When the afternoon came and with it more sunshine I suggested the boys go and play outside. When I opened the door to the back garden my face came alive as I exclaimed.. "It's not that cold!" I stepped outside and the boys ran off to play. I stood in the sunshine and took several deep breaths! O yes.... this I needed! It smelt so good, it felt so good! My whole mood changed from that moment on and the day was just fantastic. I opened some windows around the house and let the beautiful smell of sunshine pour into my house. I was so excited that spring was coming, I had a bounce in my step! As I sat down briefly and thought about the mood change, I realised that I really was desperate for the spring to come. I had expressed it as a craving a few weeks ago.. "I'm craving some sunshine" I said to my husband! Well.. thank goodness it's here!

Today was another warm and sunny afternoon and it gave me so much joy to see my boys playing outside! They love it and I LOVE to watch them. They're so creative.. and silly! They make me laugh.. it's so good to laugh.

The Valley of Weeping

Yesterday my husband, sons and I took the day to remember our beautiful Uzziah who is no longer with us. We had been to the beach the day before to collect some large, smooth stones to write a few messages on and lay at his grave. The boys all had their own messages and they picked their stones to have them written on.

Once we had finished writing our messages we headed down to the grave. When we arrived we saw a beautiful, single, yellow tulip, which we had not put there. Someone touched our lives with this gesture. We will probably never know who it was, maybe someone just visiting the children's graves and felt that Uzziahs was bare, maybe a friend who wanted to show they cared, either way, our hearts were touched.

We then proceeded to lay our little message stones on the grave.

Our beautiful little boy never took his first breath, but was called to Glory instead. We all still miss him dearly and the 'would have beens'. Grief is a painful, slow & tiring valley. A real valley of weeping. Yesterday morning before we went to the grave I read this and was encouraged by it.

Happy are those who are strong in the Lord, who set their minds on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem. When they walk through the valley of weeping it will become a place of refreshing springs, where pools of blessing collect after the rains! They will continue to grow stronger, and each of them will appear before God in Jerusalem.

Psalm 84 v 5-7